{"id":273,"date":"2015-08-26T14:43:59","date_gmt":"2015-08-26T05:43:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/?p=273"},"modified":"2015-08-26T14:43:59","modified_gmt":"2015-08-26T05:43:59","slug":"healing-my-scarred-emotions-through-dynamic-meditation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/?p=273","title":{"rendered":"Healing my scarred emotions through dynamic meditation"},"content":{"rendered":"

The following is an account of the blessings of dynamic meditation experienced during a Chiseong in Busan on August 26th, 2015. As Told By Jeong-ok Ha (40\/F)
\n<\/em><\/strong>(Translated by Seok Kim and Stuart Smallwood)<\/em><\/p>\n

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D<\/span>uring the chanting of Jee-gee-geum-ji-wun-we-dae-gang during dynamic meditation, I was repeating a motion of bringing both hands to my chest. Soon after, when the practitioners beside me were doing dynamic meditation, I burst out with tears in spite of myself. I was reminded of the times I was scolded by my father in my youth. As we started dynamic meditation, I felt the same emotions while going through the motions of meditation.<\/p>\n

I was not able to cry properly when I was young and was beaten continuously. The feeling of unfairness and anger came back to me. I was doing the same thing I did when I was being beaten. I held my left hand up to cover my face in spite of myself, thinking that it hurt so much that I wished he did not hit my face and my head. It felt like I was being hit on my left arm with a long stick. Throughout the dynamic meditation, all of my body quivered like an aspen leaf. I cried so much that tears flowed and my nose ran heavily. What looked like phlegm came up more than 3 times, and I felt nausea as if I was going to throw up. I could not stop wailing, so I covered my face with both of my hands while I kept on crying. Later, I could not even open my eyes. I felt like I was going to be knocked out. I hoped that I would fall to the ground and shatter into nothing.<\/p>\n

It seemed like my throat had become swollen and my voice did not come out so I was wondering what I should do, and then I heard the practitioners screaming and doing dynamic meditation powerfully. It felt like they were saying, \u201cIt\u2019s ok, hang in there.\u201d So I thought, \u201cLet\u2019s do it.\u201d I softly chanted jee-gee-geum-ji-wun-we-dae-gahng continuously. That made me breathe better and I felt a bit better overall. Next, I balled up my fist to do a motion as if beating on my chest. I felt this motion was to ease the pent up pressure.<\/p>\n

It was after the second session of dynamic meditation after the dao lecture. My voice did not even come out earlier, but now I felt power from my voice while reading the dynamic meditation prayer. I was dancing like how people of the old times danced during the taeulju mantra dynamic meditation, spreading my two arms. I was beating the 3 drums laid in front of me and I was beating the drums during my dynamic meditation with such joy. When His Holiness Jongdosanim said 3 minutes left, I was doing a motion of hitting a drum taller than my height. Then I brought my two hands together and bowed. It was just as the people of the old used to offer fresh water and pray. Later on when I came home, I saw reddish bruises all over my body. (Aug. 26th).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

During the chanting of Jee-gee-geum-ji-wun-we-dae-gang during dynamic meditation, I was repeating a motion of bringing both hands to my chest. Soon after, when the practitioners beside me were doing dynamic meditation, I burst out with tears in spite of myself. I was reminded of the times I was scolded by my father in my youth. As we started dynamic meditation, I felt the same emotions while going through the motions of meditation.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-emotional-moment","category-experience"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p70zWc-4p","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=273"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/meditation.jeungsando.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}